CHANGES

my life becomes changes start from wednesday.. i so worry changes.. especially this is a bigger changes in my life..have i will regret at becoming future..? i dunno about this..i so worry.. i so scare.. but what should i do?? i dunno.. why people must make desicion?? must have changes?? i just hope my life can be stable and normal.. wont be changes..

i need to wake up from my dream.. don't still thinking about you again.. thinking a person that hurted me and don't love me anymore.. got a new girlfriend.. i think just got me so stupid still think about you..
i'm sick until i so pain.. uncontrolled cry out.. but what you do?? you no ask anything at all..you no care at all.. you saw me like that.. you just doing nothing.. and go find your girlfriend.. my heart feel.. sad.. really sad.. why 3month jor.. i still like that..thinking and dreaming because of you..
this time i crying out.. not because of you..just because of me.. why i still so stupid.. aiyoyaweii~

HaTE MYsELf

I hate myself..
why still cry because of what you saying about..
why you like to hurt me..
why you like to do like a gentlemen in front of people..
but beside that you call me and talking about the thing that hurt my heart.. we just a friend..
please respect me..
please don't want let me become uncontrolled..
but i know that i still stupid.. cause you still inside my heart.. watever just a small place..
but please..don't hurt me again..
don't come disturb my life again..
my life without you..
i also feel happy..
i still got my friend, my familly..

SOnG THaT SuITaBLe ME

爱是不夜城
回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾

我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人

枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯

想若结局一样

又何苦再想

想若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤

解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过

解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦

心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头

不要爱我的人再担心我

测验

今天做了个小测验，三分钟你知道你最爱谁。

3 号是你最爱的人。那人是我的朋友。但是否爱他我不懂。

7 号是你所喜欢的人但不能相伴的。是的，我喜欢他。但我和他是不可能有结果的。因为他伤害了我。

4 号是我最关心的人。是的。虽然这个人每次骂我。但不懂怎么还是会时常去关心他。但在这里面只是友谊成分而已。

5 号是非常了解我的人。她的确是最了解我和是我的知己。

6 号是我最重要的人。

8 号的歌。爱我的资格适合给3 号的人。是的。他的条件最适合我。

9 号的歌。解脱适合给7 号的人。是的。因为喜欢他让我觉得很累～因为我的心深深的被他给伤害了。好像一把刀刺进我的心好几篇。现在没了真的感觉解脱了自己。

10号的歌。分手快乐。代表我的想法。是的，现在我的生活的确没了爱情的存在也觉得很快乐～

这个测验我觉得真的很准。代表着我的心情。我的内心。

FeELiNG

actually what is feeling.. i feel so miss him.. but i can't be stupid again.. he treat me become 360 degree changes.. when i saw him.. he no saw me at all.. while when i asking him something he like scold me like that answered my question.. why break already until now he also want like that treat me? can't treat me become better? watever our break because a big quarrel about you got other girlfriend.. watever how you scolding me.. watever how you effect my image become bad by your mouth.. watever you got another girlfriend behind me.. watever watever al of this.. can you become better?? i really feel sad.. i love you.. cause i serious in our relationship.. watever now was become a past tense.. we don't have any relation again.. but i hope that we still are friend.. and please treat me become better like you treat your friend.. now i'm controlling myself.. but don't let me can't control myself.. i won't hate you.. i just hate myself.. why would believed wat you saying about.. why so stupid loving you.. but you also was a stupid person.. cause you don't know to appreciate my heart and my love.. i won't be loss anything without you.. but i also want to thanks about you.. let me become more mature and feeling that my friend is importance for me.. thank you..

FaMiLY DaY

hehe~ i 1st time wear like this..

bringing my mom and my oldest sister and younger sister going shopping and sing k..this was my 1st time sing k with member family..

                                                   this was my younger sister named xin mei..hehe..same face with me~

this was my oldest sister named xin er..

                                                      this was me la~

                 

this was my lover mother la~ muackz~~~                  

hehe~ my younger sister same with me so zi lian ~~~

taday feel happy~ i love you all my family member!!

muackzz~~~ hehe~~~~~

FRIDaY

today i going out with my friend wee kee and ka yen.. we going one utama watch movie.. after we buying the ticket we go having our lunch together.. at pasta zamai..

this my friend- wee kee

                                                     this my friend- ka yen

 i ordered a food eat.. not delisious at all..i feel so regret..and waste me already rm30..so expensive..to eat it!but my friend wee kee help me finish it.. do not waste food o!!!

               hehe..my friend ka yen.. ordered a dessert..ice-cream..she feel her heart so pain                            o..cause so expensive rm15++ but so delisious and beautiful.. i like it~ muackzz~~~

                                                  this pasta is finished by me.. hehe~

after that i feel so tired..when us were on shopping i also felt wanna to sleep..so sleepy.. when we watching the movie..the movie not yet start it..i started fall in sleep..hehe..felt paisei.. i t hink my friend don't know about it.. but actually they know it.. but i really so tired.. so i can't control myself and sleep at cinema..hehe

Go FrienD house

                                  go dd house tonight..hehe..go eat charkuetiew..delicious!!!

                                                      my friend..liza~~

                                                    she going there also..

                                                    take the picture inside room liza..

ShOPpiNg

going out with my friend..voon..

that day shopping use jor so many money..
and buy so mant thing o..
hehe..

what is LOVE?????

at now.. actually i think i not yet know that what is love..

who can telling me..

what is LOVE??

the true meaning of LOVE??

why got some of the people can simply say out a promise??

I LOVE YOU FOREVER

is that they know that

that was a promise..?

but the sentences for me is already no meaning at all..

and cant believe at all..

i just will how you treat me..

and wont believe all the sweetness promise..

i also wont promise a people..

if i done it..

mY fAmiLY DaY

my younger sister birthday..
so our family going out having a dinner.
my younger sister suggest to eat steamboat..
cause long time no eat steamboat together with family member.
because of my father dont like to eat steamboat..

i missing a people.. he hurt me.. he lie me.. but dunno y.. so difficult 4 me 2 4get about him.. i so miss him.. feel 1 2 called him.. but i cant.. coz i dun 1 b stupid again.. i dun 1 becoz of him i let al the people scolded me stupid.. bt y my love life become like that?? when i one person i  muz thinking about him.. i feel so tired.. i dun 1 like tat again.. bt wat can i do?? bt i promise myself n my friend tat i wont find him again!! coz he was a bad guy.. bt i hope he can treat his gf more better n take care his gf.. n can b more mature.. n serious 2 his job.. hope him can his better n happy life..

hehe..xuan d 1st time giving me n carmen..

very d sweet 1..hehe..